It’s been a long time since I’ve blogged.
I wish there were reasons for this, but honestly one, I’ve been busy and two, I’ve been learning. The last two years I’ve learned so much from God and I wasn’t ready to share this information because I was still processing it. And although none of us stop learning, I think I’m at a better stage to share my growth now than before.
I’ve come a long way. Sometimes I look back at my old posts and cringe– I think ugh… I can’t believe I wrote that or I can’t believe I thought that! My views have evolved so greatly and it’s not that I’m not still a firm Christian– I am— but my understanding of God has deepened exponentially.
At one point I worried about money, love, marriage and “sin-management”, but can I tell you guys something? After a long course of lessons from God I realized this— that nothing but the Love of God carries us. Nothing else. I’ve come to realize all acts, beliefs and theories must stem from this understanding that God loves us so deeply and His love truly is unconditional.
I lived with a lot of pain, shame and abuse I hurt regularly on the inside and I craved for attention from others. On one hand I had all these unhealthy tendencies on the other hand I had a desire to do good. So when I did bad— I had an unhealthy way of “punishing myself” for my wrongs. But God doesn’t look at us in terms of “good and bad”. He looks at us as broken and He spends time carefully knitting out lives back together. We LITERALLY don’t need to worry about anything– we must only continuously submit to the Holy Spirit and take experiences as we go.
I know this article is a bit nuance and not necessarily practical— but the lessons I’ve learned from resting in God’s embrace are astronomical. I suggest that you take the daring step to believe in His scandalous love and see how it transforms you too!